15 minutes. That is all the time I allow myself to be upset about something before trying to fix it.
Someone who I care about very very deeply said something to me that wasn’t supposed to be mean and was intended as a joke but it made my eyes well up and feel like I was sliding down a slippery slope into inevitable fatness which brings with it being miserable, alone and sad like I was those 6 years ago before I had lost so much weight. It made me panic. It made me feel like a failure. It hurt. It was what I needed to hear though, I think.
See, the usual phase of dieting/New Years resolutions was about to hit me like a 40 tonne truck and I was feeling all the usual feelings just before I give up and eat a piece of cake or skip a gym session.
I can’t be the only one who knows what the usual feelings are, right? The ones where you feel the world is a little bit harder for you, because like other girls you see can’t just eat what you want and enjoy your life, you can’t just slip into a bikini and feel comfortable without serious plastic surgery and months and months of starvation.
“EVERYTHING IS SO HARDER FOR ME, IT’S NOT FAIR” – Me, every time I have to say no to pizza
Well, I sat myself down, had a secret cry, let myself be vulnerable and sad and then got the f**k over it. 15 minutes.
Now I am more determined that ever to get back to being as fit as hell, have people other than the security guard at the Woolies tell me, “Wow, you have such a great body” and fit into anything and everything off of Superbalist (Seriously, their sizing is ridonk)
So to get out of my mystery I started building the most amazing running Playlist (it’s a Work In Progress like it’s curator)
You can listen to it on Apple Music here: #ConstrucTHIN by Punkystarfish
Spoiler alert, it’s longer than 15 minutes.
PS. I hope it makes you want to dance your face off (but like on a treadmill while burning some serious calories and making your heart a little healthier and happier)
If you have any songs that you just adore and can’t actually gym without, please let me know in the comments below and I’ll make sure I add them to the #ConstrucTHIN playlist 🙂